What I am learning

How can I trust somebody who seems to have two faces?? I mean... she changes her attitudes depending on who she is talking with. I am confused. Which is her, a nice, cute and kind girl, or a gossip girl? I'm tired of hearing gossiping, complaining, hating a boss, whatever. I think these things do not help us to feel better. ...

It was really lovely day today. I went to Shinjyuku to meet my friend. We get together to study the Bible once a month. She is such a nice woman and I love her so much. I am now preparing for the marriage. (I will marry in October) My fiance and I are not sure which contry we should live in. He wants to live in Japan but I do not have a good job enough to support him. For me, Japan is boring since I was born. Somehow, I know I have something to do in Japan. So, maybe I want to live in Japan. I also want to see another country where I have never been. When I think of my future family, it might be difficult to travel a lot. Anywayz, I feel frustrated sometime because I really do not know where we should live. Only I can do is pray for God and ask Him the guidance.

So, I talked her about my problem, and she told me about her problem. We read the Bible together and "Psalms 139 got my attention.

Lord, you have examined me and you know me.
You know everything I do;
from far away you understand all my thoughts.
You see me, whether I am working or resting;
you know all my actions.
Even before I speak,
you already know what I will say.
You are all around me on every side;
you protect me with your power.
Your knowledge of me is too deep;
it is beyond my understanding.

Where could I go to escape from you?
Where could I get away from your presence?

If I went up to heaven, you would be there;
if I lay down in the world of the dead, you would be there.
If I flew away beyond the east or lived in the farthest place in the west,
you would be there to lead me, you would be there to help me.

I could ask the darkness to hide me or the light around me to turn into night,

but even darkness is not dark for you,
and the night is as bright as the day.
Darkness and light are the same to you.

You created every part of me;
you put me together in my mother's womb.
I praise you because you are to be feared;
all you do is strange and wonderful.
I know it with all my heart.

When my bones were being formed,
carefully put together in my mother's womb,
when I was growing there in secret,
you knew that I was there
you saw me before I was born.
The days allotted to me
had all been recorded in your book,
before any of them ever began.
O God, how difficult I find your thoughts;
how many of them there are.

If I counted them, they would be more than the grains of sand.
When I awake, I am still with you.

O God, how I wish you would kill the wicked!
How I wish violent people would leave me alone!
They say wicked things about you;
they speak evil things aginst your name.
O Lord, how I hate those who hate you!
How I despise those who rebel against you!
I hate them with a total hatred;
I regard them as my enemies.

Examine me, O God, and know my mind;
test me, and discover my thoughts.

Find out if there is any evil in me
and guide me in the everlasting way.

He knows about me. He knows what I am struggling. He knows what I am thinking and planning. I think it's wise to rely on Him who knows everything about me!!!

I went shopping today with my friends, and I really had a great time. We talked about our dreams and we encouraged each other.

I really think I love my friends much more than before. I Do care for my friends and love my friends. I am so happy when I hang out with my friends! They are so precious and important to me.

Before I became a christian, I loved my friends also but I was so self-centered. I was selfish. I met my friends when I was lonley, so I did not hang out with my friends a lot when I was a student. I had a boyfriend at that time, so I was happy because he was with me. I did not keep in touch with my middle school or high school friends. Isn't it so sad not to keep in touch with friends because they do not live close to me????

Anywayz, I was that kind of girl. However, God has changed me a lot!! I Do love my friends and I really want to keep in touch with my friends wherever they are! God helps me to love people.

Let's keep in touch, my friends!!!

Hi there,

I went to my friend's church this Sunday. It was my first time to visit there.

The pastor talked about fasting.

And when you fast, do not put on a sad face as the hypocrites do. They neglect their appearance so that everyone will see that they are fasting. I assure you, they have already been paid in full.

When you go without food, wash your face and comb your hair,
so that others cannot know that you are fasting-only your Father, who is unseen, will know. And your Father, who sees what you do in private, will reward you.

Matthew 6:16-18

The hypocrites fasted a lot at that time! They did it twice a week. (more than 100 times a year) However, their purpose of the fasting was not to gain God's approval but to gain people's approval. They neglected their appearance so that everyone will see that they are fasting. They just wanted people say that they were great.

Jesus did not tell His disciples to fast, but He did not also tell them NOT to fast.
He suggested them how to fast.
1. wash your hair and comb your hair.
2. The fasting should be a seacret! You will not be rewarded by people but your Father in heaven will reward you!

ummm, I see. People cannot understand what other people are thinking in their minds, but God knows about our hearts. Like... okay... I tried to focus on listening to the sermon this morning, but I did not sleep enough last night so I was sleepy. I was thinking something else during the sermon, like what am I going to do after the church? etc... He knows about me very well.

God knows about you very well also! He knows about your happiness, saddness, struggles, etc, even your hair is numbered!. He loves you so much!

How important FRIENDS are!!

I was really desperate for having a fellowship with my christian friends. I was stressed out.. yeah, I was pretty tired. I felt I was walking in a maze. I do not know how my future will be. Well nobody knows. No matter how hard we try to know about future, we will never know about it.

Here is the verses which say about it.

He has set the right time for everything. He has given us a desire to know the future, but never gives us the satisfaction of fully understanding what he does.

So I realized that all we can do is happy and do the best we can while we are still alive.

All of us should eat and drink and enjoy what we have worked for. It is God's gift.

Ecclesiastes4:11-13

I went to Tokyo to meet my friend tonight. It was really fun. I have not met her for a half year. I met her last summer on a mission trip. We only had a few hours to meet but we really had a great time. We prayed for each other before we said good-bye. While she was praying for me, God healed my heart and it was really pleasant.

I hope you had a great day also!

God bless you!