What I am learning

My Child,

You may not know me,
but I know everything about you.
Psalm 139:1

I know when you sit down and when you rise up.
Psalm 139:2

I am familiar with all your ways.
Psalm 139:3

Even the very hairs on your head are numbered.
Matthew 10:29-31

For you were made in my image.
Genesis 1:27

In me you live and move and have your being.
Acts 17:28

For you are my offspring.
Acts 17:28

I knew you even before you were conceived.
Jeremiah 1:4-5

I chose you when I planned creation.
Ephesians 1:11-12

You were not a mistake,
for all your days are written in my book.
Psalm 139:15-16

I determined the exact time of your birth
and where you would live.
Acts 17:26

You are fearfully and wonderfully made.
Psalm 139:14

I knit you together in your mother's womb.
Psalm 139:13

And brought you forth on the day you were born.
Psalm 71:6

I have been misrepresented
by those who don't know me.
John 8:41-44

I am not distant and angry,
but am the complete expression of love.
1 John 4:16

And it is my desire to lavish my love on you.
1 John 3:1

Simply because you are my child
and I am your Father.
1 John 3:1

I offer you more than your earthly father ever could.
Matthew 7:11

For I am the perfect father.
Matthew 5:48

Every good gift that you receive comes from my hand.
James 1:17

For I am your provider and I meet all your needs.
Matthew 6:31-33

My plan for your future has always been filled with hope.
Jeremiah 29:11

Because I love you with an everlasting love.
Jeremiah 31:3

My thoughts toward you are countless
as the sand on the seashore.
Psalms 139:17-18

And I rejoice over you with singing.
Zephaniah 3:17

I will never stop doing good to you.
Jeremiah 32:40

For you are my treasured possession.
Exodus 19:5

I desire to establish you
with all my heart and all my soul.
Jeremiah 32:41

And I want to show you great and marvelous things.
Jeremiah 33:3

If you seek me with all your heart,
you will find me.
Deuteronomy 4:29

Delight in me and I will give you
the desires of your heart.
Psalm 37:4

For it is I who gave you those desires.
Philippians 2:13

I am able to do more for you
than you could possibly imagine.
Ephesians 3:20

For I am your greatest encourager.
2 Thessalonians 2:16-17

I am also the Father who comforts you
in all your troubles.
2 Corinthians 1:3-4

When you are brokenhearted,
I am close to you.
Psalm 34:18

As a shepherd carries a lamb,
I have carried you close to my heart.
Isaiah 40:11

One day I will wipe away
every tear from your eyes.
Revelation 21:3-4

And I'll take away all the pain
you have suffered on this earth.
Revelation 21:3-4

I am your Father, and I love you
even as I love my son, Jesus.
John 17:23

For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed.
John 17:26

He is the exact representation of my being.
Hebrews 1:3

He came to demonstrate that I am for you,
not against you.
Romans 8:31

And to tell you that I am not counting your sins.
2 Corinthians 5:18-19

Jesus died so that you and I could be reconciled.
2 Corinthians 5:18-19

His death was the ultimate expression
of my love for you.
1 John 4:10

I gave up everything I loved
that I might gain your love.
Romans 8:31-32

If you receive the gift of my son Jesus,
you receive me.
1 John 2:23

And nothing will ever separate you
from my love again.
Romans 8:38-39

Come home and I'll throw the biggest party
heaven has ever seen.
Luke 15:7

I have always been Father,
and will always be Father.
Ephesians 3:14-15

My question is…
Will you be my child?
John 1:12-13

I am waiting for you.
Luke 15:11-32

Love, Your Dad
Almighty God

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Love in Christ,

yoko

Yes, I am ready to get married.

My boyfriend is just perfect for me.
He is kind, honest, blunt, cool, nice,
I have never met somebody like him.
I just love him so much.
He is amazing.
He is very attractive.
He is clever.
He is willing to understand me.


I want to support him
I want to encourage him
I want to do whatever I can do for him.
I trust him
I am faithful to him
I want to join his dreams and I want him to join my dreams.

But I am not sure if this is the right time for both of us.
He is not sure either.

Oh Father, we need your guidance, so we pray for you.
Please make us stay together.
You always listen to us and answer our prayers and do the best for both of us.

I do not worry about anything because I trust you.

I do not know if everybody has a hard time to find a right job for them.
I am the one who is struggling with it.

My dream has changed a lot. I do not remember what I wanted to be when I was little, but I remember I wanted to be police, aesthetician, model, dental mechanic, teacher, etc.
I was sure that I loved English so much and wanted to continue studying it. So I had decided to major in English language in my university, I had a chance to study Chinese in my school. I think I love languages. I was a little bit interested in teaching, so I took a course to be an English teacher in a high school and middle school. It was fun and interesting experience for me, but I thought I was not good at teaching.

After graduating from the university, I went to the US (I lived in Charlotte, NC for a year) and worked as an AuPair. It was really awesome experience and it was challenging for me to live in a foreign country for a year. Of course, I was homesick and wanted to go back to my home country but I overcame it and I made awesome friends there.

Then I came back from the US and started thinking what I was going to do next.
This is my dream to have a christian shop someday, (I am not sure if I will have it or not now)
So I thought it might be a good idea to work at a shop and learn a management. I looked for a job and got hired at a shop in airport. From September 2008, I have been working there. I have started living on my own since I moved, I had a lot of time to talk to God and read the Bible. I cried a lot actually. I cried a lot because I felt so lonley. I now live in Chiba which is next to Tokyo, but my hometown is far from Chiba..I did not know anybody here, although I knew some of the people in Tokyo. The one thing I did was to talk to GOd. Talk to God as if He was my friend, as if he was beside me and listening to me. Then I cried and showed my weekness to God. I could not see Him and I could not hear His voise like human voices, but I was sure he was with me and listening to me. Through the Bible, God spoke to me. Without God, I could not start my new life here in Chiba.

I started praying for God about what I needed. He answered my prayers immideately.
The most precios thing God gave me was friends. I made wonderful friends here.

I think.... I am going to change my job again. To be honest, I do not want to change my job because I like this job and love people I work with. However, I do not feel I should stay here for a long time. It is a little bit shorter than I thought but I might move out of Japan again in 2009. I am praying for a job in a foreign country. I will know soon where I should go. I do not worry because God gives me always what I need and God directs my future.

I just wrote down what is happening to my life...
When we are struggling with something, it is not easy to go through. We might think we want to give up, but I believe there are something we need to learn in that difficult situation. From my experiences, there are always lessons to learn.

Humor humor humor

I enjoyed watching some videos on youtube and I found one girl who is so funny.
I became a fun of her.

I wanted to be funny all the time ( I still want to be funny)
It is natural for me to be funny. I am from west side of Japan which is called Kansai area.
People from that area is usually funny and trying to be funny and tell a joke. I believe many comedians are from there.

I have lived in the US for a year. I had a difficult time to understand American jokes.
Whenever I hung out with my American friends, I could not understand why they were laughing sometimes.

But the girl I found on youtube is an American but she is really funny to me.

I feel now I can understand American jokes.

I did really bad things for my ex boyfriend. We had been together for almost 4 years but I did not love him. I knew he loved me and he asked me to get married when I was 22. I thought I did not love him but his family seemed rich and my ex boyfriend was a hard worker, so I might get married with him. If I got married with him, I might not have to work... That would be nice! But.. I did not love him, I felt there would be somebody else I can love with all my heart. My family also felt the same way. When I told my mom that "I might get marry with my boyfriend", she said "I do not think you will get married with him." I pondered what this meant.

By the way,
Do you think having sex will make you happy?
Do you think your love for your lover will be fonder if you make love?

I had sex with five guys (one guy was not even my boyfriend). I was 16 when I lost my virginity.
I knew this was not the right thing to do....
After everything was done and I went back home, I thought I lost something very important.
I did not get anything but I just lost something important.
Soon after that, I broke up with him.

The more I had sex with guys, the more my heart got hurt.
I was stupid and I was into having sex.

I decided to go to the US after graduating from my university. My exboyfriend did not want me to go there, but he finally agreed when I said to him "I would get married with you after coming back home." Of course, I told a lie. I remember I wrote in my journal in the airplain, "Something wonderful will happen in the US. I do not know what it is though."

YES, Now I know that something wonderful was about Jesus!! I came to know JESUS in the US. I believe in Him.
In the bible, having sex before marriage is banned. When I knew about this, I thought "Oh that is why I did not feel good when I had sex. I did not get anything from having sex!!"

After I became a christian, I lost interests in guys and I wanted to focus on Jesus and wanted to know about him more. But I wanted to get married with somebody someday so I prayed for God that "I will not have sex again before marriage, Please give me a guy who is faithful to God and loves God and loves me."

I made up my mind to go to Toronto to meet my other exboyfriend I met on the internet. We met on the internet and had dated for a few weeks. (We had never met!!) I went to Toronto to make sure if he is the guy God prepared for me. My friend tried to stop me to go there but I did not listen to her. After all, the trip ended up terrible. When I met him at the airport, he was kind and looked nice. We ate dinner together and he booked a room for me. We talked on the bed. Then, I realized that he just wanted to have sex with me. I felt terrible and told him "I do not have sex with you or even kiss you if you just want to fool around". I prayed for God that "God, if he is not the guy you chose for me, take him out of this room!!". After praying for God, the guy stood up and went out of the room.
During this trip, I spent most of my time reading the bible because I got hurt and the bible healed my hurt.
I did not know when I was traveling but my friends were praying for me during this trip. I felt God was close to me and prevented me from committing sins.

I was hopeless. I thought the guy in the Toronto would be my fiance, but God told me he was not. God gave me many friends who were faithful to God but I did not want to be in a relationship with my any friend because they were so important to me and I was afraid that I might break a friendship if I dated with one of my friends. I liked one of my friends and respected him. I liked to talk about Jesus with him and he told me about how God had changed him. We talked about God a lot. He was so unique. He was so attractive to me but I tried to neglect my true feeling and tried to think he was just my friend. I was still praying for God "God, please give me a guy who is faithful to you."

One day, God answered my prayer. God gave me a wonderful boyfriend who is faithful to God, loves God and loves me also. He is one of my friends and the guy I liked for a long time. When I tried to neglect my feeling, he liked me also. We were feeling the same way (we liked each other for a long time).

We are now in a long distance relationship but we love each other so much. We now agree on praying that "let us live in a same city or even in a same country". I am sure God will answer our prayer... because God says,,, "Whenever two of you on earth agree about anything you pray for, it will be done for you by my Father in heaven. (Matthew 18:19)