What I am learning

Yes, I am ready to get married.

My boyfriend is just perfect for me.
He is kind, honest, blunt, cool, nice,
I have never met somebody like him.
I just love him so much.
He is amazing.
He is very attractive.
He is clever.
He is willing to understand me.


I want to support him
I want to encourage him
I want to do whatever I can do for him.
I trust him
I am faithful to him
I want to join his dreams and I want him to join my dreams.

But I am not sure if this is the right time for both of us.
He is not sure either.

Oh Father, we need your guidance, so we pray for you.
Please make us stay together.
You always listen to us and answer our prayers and do the best for both of us.

I do not worry about anything because I trust you.

I do not know if everybody has a hard time to find a right job for them.
I am the one who is struggling with it.

My dream has changed a lot. I do not remember what I wanted to be when I was little, but I remember I wanted to be police, aesthetician, model, dental mechanic, teacher, etc.
I was sure that I loved English so much and wanted to continue studying it. So I had decided to major in English language in my university, I had a chance to study Chinese in my school. I think I love languages. I was a little bit interested in teaching, so I took a course to be an English teacher in a high school and middle school. It was fun and interesting experience for me, but I thought I was not good at teaching.

After graduating from the university, I went to the US (I lived in Charlotte, NC for a year) and worked as an AuPair. It was really awesome experience and it was challenging for me to live in a foreign country for a year. Of course, I was homesick and wanted to go back to my home country but I overcame it and I made awesome friends there.

Then I came back from the US and started thinking what I was going to do next.
This is my dream to have a christian shop someday, (I am not sure if I will have it or not now)
So I thought it might be a good idea to work at a shop and learn a management. I looked for a job and got hired at a shop in airport. From September 2008, I have been working there. I have started living on my own since I moved, I had a lot of time to talk to God and read the Bible. I cried a lot actually. I cried a lot because I felt so lonley. I now live in Chiba which is next to Tokyo, but my hometown is far from Chiba..I did not know anybody here, although I knew some of the people in Tokyo. The one thing I did was to talk to GOd. Talk to God as if He was my friend, as if he was beside me and listening to me. Then I cried and showed my weekness to God. I could not see Him and I could not hear His voise like human voices, but I was sure he was with me and listening to me. Through the Bible, God spoke to me. Without God, I could not start my new life here in Chiba.

I started praying for God about what I needed. He answered my prayers immideately.
The most precios thing God gave me was friends. I made wonderful friends here.

I think.... I am going to change my job again. To be honest, I do not want to change my job because I like this job and love people I work with. However, I do not feel I should stay here for a long time. It is a little bit shorter than I thought but I might move out of Japan again in 2009. I am praying for a job in a foreign country. I will know soon where I should go. I do not worry because God gives me always what I need and God directs my future.

I just wrote down what is happening to my life...
When we are struggling with something, it is not easy to go through. We might think we want to give up, but I believe there are something we need to learn in that difficult situation. From my experiences, there are always lessons to learn.

Humor humor humor

I enjoyed watching some videos on youtube and I found one girl who is so funny.
I became a fun of her.

I wanted to be funny all the time ( I still want to be funny)
It is natural for me to be funny. I am from west side of Japan which is called Kansai area.
People from that area is usually funny and trying to be funny and tell a joke. I believe many comedians are from there.

I have lived in the US for a year. I had a difficult time to understand American jokes.
Whenever I hung out with my American friends, I could not understand why they were laughing sometimes.

But the girl I found on youtube is an American but she is really funny to me.

I feel now I can understand American jokes.