I did really bad things for my ex boyfriend. We had been together for almost 4 years but I did not love him. I knew he loved me and he asked me to get married when I was 22. I thought I did not love him but his family seemed rich and my ex boyfriend was a hard worker, so I might get married with him. If I got married with him, I might not have to work... That would be nice! But.. I did not love him, I felt there would be somebody else I can love with all my heart. My family also felt the same way. When I told my mom that "I might get marry with my boyfriend", she said "I do not think you will get married with him." I pondered what this meant.
By the way,
Do you think having sex will make you happy?
Do you think your love for your lover will be fonder if you make love?
I had sex with five guys (one guy was not even my boyfriend). I was 16 when I lost my virginity.
I knew this was not the right thing to do....
After everything was done and I went back home, I thought I lost something very important.
I did not get anything but I just lost something important.
Soon after that, I broke up with him.
The more I had sex with guys, the more my heart got hurt.
I was stupid and I was into having sex.
I decided to go to the US after graduating from my university. My exboyfriend did not want me to go there, but he finally agreed when I said to him "I would get married with you after coming back home." Of course, I told a lie. I remember I wrote in my journal in the airplain, "Something wonderful will happen in the US. I do not know what it is though."
YES, Now I know that something wonderful was about Jesus!! I came to know JESUS in the US. I believe in Him.
In the bible, having sex before marriage is banned. When I knew about this, I thought "Oh that is why I did not feel good when I had sex. I did not get anything from having sex!!"
After I became a christian, I lost interests in guys and I wanted to focus on Jesus and wanted to know about him more. But I wanted to get married with somebody someday so I prayed for God that "I will not have sex again before marriage, Please give me a guy who is faithful to God and loves God and loves me."
I made up my mind to go to Toronto to meet my other exboyfriend I met on the internet. We met on the internet and had dated for a few weeks. (We had never met!!) I went to Toronto to make sure if he is the guy God prepared for me. My friend tried to stop me to go there but I did not listen to her. After all, the trip ended up terrible. When I met him at the airport, he was kind and looked nice. We ate dinner together and he booked a room for me. We talked on the bed. Then, I realized that he just wanted to have sex with me. I felt terrible and told him "I do not have sex with you or even kiss you if you just want to fool around". I prayed for God that "God, if he is not the guy you chose for me, take him out of this room!!". After praying for God, the guy stood up and went out of the room.
During this trip, I spent most of my time reading the bible because I got hurt and the bible healed my hurt.
I did not know when I was traveling but my friends were praying for me during this trip. I felt God was close to me and prevented me from committing sins.
I was hopeless. I thought the guy in the Toronto would be my fiance, but God told me he was not. God gave me many friends who were faithful to God but I did not want to be in a relationship with my any friend because they were so important to me and I was afraid that I might break a friendship if I dated with one of my friends. I liked one of my friends and respected him. I liked to talk about Jesus with him and he told me about how God had changed him. We talked about God a lot. He was so unique. He was so attractive to me but I tried to neglect my true feeling and tried to think he was just my friend. I was still praying for God "God, please give me a guy who is faithful to you."
One day, God answered my prayer. God gave me a wonderful boyfriend who is faithful to God, loves God and loves me also. He is one of my friends and the guy I liked for a long time. When I tried to neglect my feeling, he liked me also. We were feeling the same way (we liked each other for a long time).
We are now in a long distance relationship but we love each other so much. We now agree on praying that "let us live in a same city or even in a same country". I am sure God will answer our prayer... because God says,,, "Whenever two of you on earth agree about anything you pray for, it will be done for you by my Father in heaven. (Matthew 18:19)
By the way,
Do you think having sex will make you happy?
Do you think your love for your lover will be fonder if you make love?
I had sex with five guys (one guy was not even my boyfriend). I was 16 when I lost my virginity.
I knew this was not the right thing to do....
After everything was done and I went back home, I thought I lost something very important.
I did not get anything but I just lost something important.
Soon after that, I broke up with him.
The more I had sex with guys, the more my heart got hurt.
I was stupid and I was into having sex.
I decided to go to the US after graduating from my university. My exboyfriend did not want me to go there, but he finally agreed when I said to him "I would get married with you after coming back home." Of course, I told a lie. I remember I wrote in my journal in the airplain, "Something wonderful will happen in the US. I do not know what it is though."
YES, Now I know that something wonderful was about Jesus!! I came to know JESUS in the US. I believe in Him.
In the bible, having sex before marriage is banned. When I knew about this, I thought "Oh that is why I did not feel good when I had sex. I did not get anything from having sex!!"
After I became a christian, I lost interests in guys and I wanted to focus on Jesus and wanted to know about him more. But I wanted to get married with somebody someday so I prayed for God that "I will not have sex again before marriage, Please give me a guy who is faithful to God and loves God and loves me."
I made up my mind to go to Toronto to meet my other exboyfriend I met on the internet. We met on the internet and had dated for a few weeks. (We had never met!!) I went to Toronto to make sure if he is the guy God prepared for me. My friend tried to stop me to go there but I did not listen to her. After all, the trip ended up terrible. When I met him at the airport, he was kind and looked nice. We ate dinner together and he booked a room for me. We talked on the bed. Then, I realized that he just wanted to have sex with me. I felt terrible and told him "I do not have sex with you or even kiss you if you just want to fool around". I prayed for God that "God, if he is not the guy you chose for me, take him out of this room!!". After praying for God, the guy stood up and went out of the room.
During this trip, I spent most of my time reading the bible because I got hurt and the bible healed my hurt.
I did not know when I was traveling but my friends were praying for me during this trip. I felt God was close to me and prevented me from committing sins.
I was hopeless. I thought the guy in the Toronto would be my fiance, but God told me he was not. God gave me many friends who were faithful to God but I did not want to be in a relationship with my any friend because they were so important to me and I was afraid that I might break a friendship if I dated with one of my friends. I liked one of my friends and respected him. I liked to talk about Jesus with him and he told me about how God had changed him. We talked about God a lot. He was so unique. He was so attractive to me but I tried to neglect my true feeling and tried to think he was just my friend. I was still praying for God "God, please give me a guy who is faithful to you."
One day, God answered my prayer. God gave me a wonderful boyfriend who is faithful to God, loves God and loves me also. He is one of my friends and the guy I liked for a long time. When I tried to neglect my feeling, he liked me also. We were feeling the same way (we liked each other for a long time).
We are now in a long distance relationship but we love each other so much. We now agree on praying that "let us live in a same city or even in a same country". I am sure God will answer our prayer... because God says,,, "Whenever two of you on earth agree about anything you pray for, it will be done for you by my Father in heaven. (Matthew 18:19)
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